Current obsession

Kings of Leon. Yes I know I'm a little behind the curve. I only have 3 songs by these guys, "Use Somebody," "Sex on Fire," and "Closer," and I listen to them on repeat over and over and over.

My friend Ryan and his fiance, Melissa, came down to Beaufort not too long ago and stayed here while they were going to see a Kings of Leon in concert in Charleston, so the band always reminds me of them, which reminds me of Ryan, which reminds me of college, which reminds me of the DTH and all the fun we had. Granted there were times we butted heads, but I miss those days tremendously. And F$ and Brian Hudson and Brianna and Daniel and Johnson and Ricky and Joseph and Kavita and Jim Walsh and Stace-man and Chris Cameron and the list goes on and on.

It's not just that my whole life is about to do a 180 in 2 weeks, and I'm feeling nostalgic for more "care-free" days, which is the last thing I would have called those days at the time, but looking back, I miss them. I miss the debates and the challenges. I miss so much.

I can't say I would go back if I could, only because I love what I have now. A little boy on the way. A fiance who is the love of my life. Stability.

I have had this conversation before about the grass always being greener on the other side: When you have the stability, you want the freedom; when you have the freedom, you crave the stability.

When I had the freedom, I always said I'd be happier with the stability, but was cautioned I might not feel that way once I got it. Wrong. I am happier now. I wouldn't trade this for anything in the world. It's too hard going through life alone. Not that freedom necessary entails being alone. It doesn't.

I'm going in full circles here. And I think I'm lost myself on the way of what I'm trying to say, which is: I couldn't be happier now. But I miss the old days, the friends I can't hang out with every day, what we were working for and everything we believed in.

That and I like Kings of Leon.